Knowledge is Power

     For obvious reasons I am starting at the very beginning of my journey of infertility. Let me start by telling my reader's that I have never had a natural period in my life. My Mother took me to the doctor at age 16 to see what was wrong and we never got a definite answer. They ran all kinds of test on me to never find a cause to this. I was also put on birth control that made me have a period. As a teenager I often thought to myself that I would never have a child. I know that is kind of odd, but it is true. I guess I just had the feeling. As you know that wasn't important to me at that age. I actually thought it was great because I didn't have to deal with it every month.... boy was I WRONG! 
    Well, there came an age where the thought of not having children was horrifying to me. I think it was around the age of 19, or 20. I previously dated one guy with a child. I became very attached to this child. He was only 3 when we started dating, and I treated him like he was my own. I still check on him from time to time but now he is a 13 year old. :) It didn't fully hit me that I wasn't normal until I was in a very serious relationship and babies was all I could think of. For a long period of my life I did not have health insurance; therefore, going to the doctor for further testing was out of the question. 
    I was with Matt for a few years before we got married, and we never used protection. In fact, I remember in the beginning how weird he was every time we didn't use protection. And every time I laughed and told him I promise I wouldn't get pregnant. He never understood how I just knew. Matt also has a son, but is now an EX husband. I love his son so much!! After we got married we started going to an Infertility Specialist. They poked me with needles so much and pumped me full of hormones. Again, I got no answer. After quite a while I finally got the doctor to tell me what was going on. The hormones are there... my pituitary gland doesn't send them at the correct time... actually at all. I then was put on Provera to induce a period. It didn't work. They had to put me on Estrogen and then Provera to get a withdraw from me! I got an HSG (that crap hurts) and my tubes are clear and everything is normal! 
    Then to my surprise Matt and I were stationed in NY. So we made the move from Long Beach California to Buffalo NY! The best thing I have found from moving to this state is my new Clinic. I was retested for allot! All the blood work we had to redo. And everything seemed good. They again put me on Provera and after I bled I was to try Femara. I tried it and there was no growth.. my overies were completely quiet. I then got more blood work and tried Clomid. Again, nothing :( I was in a very dark place and thought there was no hope. Again, more blood work... we went in for another consolation and our doctor said we should try injections and IUI. 

Okay, at this point I am going to stop, and let everything soak in. I am trying to start at the beginning in order to catch my reader's up to speed. Thank you for reading!! I will update my blog as needed in the next few weeks in order to catch up to normal everyday life for me. Good luck in each and everyone of your baby journeys.